not much time left

Oh my god, next week is THE week when I'm going home. It feels so weird because I have been away for a year, minus 20 days or so. It going to be nice to see everyone again but utterly weird in the same time, I mean my sister is now engaged and she's no longer living home, my youngest little brother is moving to Stockholm this very fall to study music at Fryshuset. And dad work kind of far away now so he is not home during the weeks that leave me, my mom and my other brother, 3 out of 6. Its going to be really weird I tell you that! Tomorrow, Friday that is; the new Au Pair will arrive, Lollo. Its going to be nice to meet her and of course talk a little Swedish again. Olivia seem to be looking forward to it too.

I have no idea what I will do this weekend, I'm supposed to stay away so that Lollo and Olivia can get to know each other but have no idea what to do, so if anyone has any kind of idea they are welcome to tell me or invite me to something! Oh and by the way on Tuesday next week there is going to be a party, my party but its more like a get together goodbye meeting I guess. Anyway... for does Au pairs that haven't seen it on Facebook, your most welcome to join us!

Its At Applebees Neighborhood Grill at Knapp Rd, Montgomeryville area

The best Weekend ever!

So Ellen and Olivia went to the shore house together with momom, and left me alone in the house for the weekend. Awesome, Friday night a went to a party, I drove so no drinking for me. Well I'm normally not that big of a drinker anyway. Met 2 other swedes there, o'boy was that fun. Amanda and Ludde (Ludvig). The party was kind of a good bye party for Saskia and Ulla, I didn't get home until 1 o'clock in the night.

   

Saturday I spend like the whole day with Lia, at least the whole day from 1 pm when I was out of bed and ready to meet her. Had a lazy but nice day and she slept over at my place since her host dad told her to stay away from the house that night, we think he had company over, hehe.

On Sunday I went to the mall with Amanda, Ludde and Lia. For a guy he seemed cool with the walking around the shopping mall thing, he even spent about and hour in one clothing store, kind of funny, we had lunch at the mall to and after that we went home to saskia to her more calm god bye party, the evening was wonderful, I had a great time, talking and laughing. I really enjoyed myself.

    

Don't let the bed bugs bite, just all the other bugs in the world.

HeHe, Yes you could say that. I believe does American bugs loves me as much as the Swedish onces, unfair since I really hate them. yes I used the hate word and I will again. It sound so much more powerful.. Don't you think so my disgusting little bugs that wont leave me alone? So anyway, I find does small itching bits all the time, and on 4 of July I was outside for some hours in the evening, with I paid for, I'm going to itch myself to death, and if I could choose between Pain and itch it would be Pain.

Another day of madness and madly hot temperatures,

Stayed inside today, and with good reasons. Up in the 100's today. In Celsius it was 36 degrees, I am melting away. During the day I didn't do much, to hot and the AC in my room doesn't work, thank good for the fan. its my Best friend right now, would we be dead or something without it by now. I made my very good pasta with meat sauce to, so it should be ready to the dinner, and of course it was. Then we had a shower fight or more like and argument and ignoring best fight, I hate does, I really do. I don't like to repeat myself over and over again. But other then that nothing much happen today, another boring, lame day where I did absolutely nothing. I'm also worried because my money has still not got in to my account, first day after long weekend but still. It makes me worried, its after all 196 dollars, dollars I really can't loose.

Song of the day

Okay this is the song for the day, that keeps me up and in a good mood. I really like it, as the rest of his music is fucking brilliant and extremely good. Well I guess I will write something more later on during the day, for now this is enough.

Stupid baby pool.

So, work today. Kind of chill in the beginning, just had to got to the market around 11. Before that I was basically off. After I fixed Olivia's lunch around 1 pm, hell broke out. I do not know what wrong with this kid for the moment, the little angel she was a week ago or so is completely replaced by a demon or something like that. She is completely ignoring me, being rude and acting up. I can no longer wait for my last month to be over, I so want to go home now. I do not regret spending a year in USA but  it also made me realize I am very, very happy home in Sweden, even do small adventures are healthy to go on sometimes, at least that is what I like to believe.

Well doing her hair today was a nightmare, it took 40 minutes in stead of 10. And its just driving me crazy. When we finally and i mean finally arrive at the pool she continues to ignore and being rude and I just feel like going to drown myself to get away from it. And what really annoys me is the fact that Olivia can swim but she today INSIST on going over to the freaking baby pool that..

a. is warm as hell to be in, when its already in high 90's outside of any pool
b. they stink and are dirty, I really don't want to know what all the babies and small
    kids have been doing in this pool, still i am forced to sit there in the water with her
    feeling tortured.

and there is a much lager, cooler, nicer pool a few meters away, and Olivia CAN swim, she is sex years old with is at least 3 years to old for a baby pool. I'm just so annoyed over this day, thank god its over soon.

I wish my camera weren't broken by the way would love to put some pictures here but not only is the camera totally fucked up, the memory card with my pictures on has mysteriously gone missing to.

Fireworks

So since everyone I know was letting me down today my host-mom and Olivia saved me from a complete messed up 4 of July. They got home around 6, surprised to find me here since I had told them I where going to Philly and when I explained to them what I was doing home... still... they invited me to go with them and whats the fireworks. We drove there together with another mom and her son and then walked to Rita's and had water ice then walked back up to where the fireworks should be and after some waiting it started, fabulous! But like 10 minutes in it all stopped and I think it was because of the firework that went off way to soon and close to the ground and it took about 10-15 minutes until it started again and 5 minutes later a very blinking ambulance left the area, I hope who ever was in it will be alright! Anyway the Fireworks continued and it was AWESOME! The big finally was even better, really had a good time. Even if the bugs ate me alive and Olivia crushed herself against me and sang for all the people, everyone wanted her to be quite but she don't get the words; stop, no, quite. So we all had to suffer.

This sucks

Okay, 4 of July today and I would love to go in to Philadelphia and see the celebrations. But for reason I'm abandoned by my friends, they don't answer on Facebook or their stupid cellphones. I know they have them close by so why the fuck wouldn't they answer? I stand up for them and come with them when I can and have money for it but when I for freaking once want to do something, then.. NO ONE wants to join, and I'm NOT going in to Philly all by myself.

1. I don't find my way in there.
2. What the fun of being alone, I'M DONE being alone.
3. I don't trust the city of Philadelphia, no big desire to being kill or what ever could happen.

In the begging of the past week the plans were all done and then they change 10 billion times because people cant keep what they promise and now I end up alone, AGAIN. Next time they want my company they can freaking forget it, not happening. Its 2.30 and I'm still in bed because i can find reason to get up right now. *Hmmf* been reading on NegativeNeil.com again, cant help it, like reading there.

Party, Party!

So tonight we went out partying! One of the girls are getting married in two weeks, so why should we party? Now well I'm not a party girl. In fact I'm the worst party girl ever, I get tired from drinking alcohol (cocktails, beers or what ever they serve) I know.. boring but anyway I had a great time even tho I felt kind of tired not only from very little drinking but also from working the whole day, out in the sun, wish I had the gut to go up and dance but no. I planted myself of a chair close to were the people were dancing and enjoyed just looking, very funny. Some people really dance; Dancing rather then good. I had a great time! We left the bar at 2 am. Got home by 2.50, Its fucking hard to sneak quiet in to a house were the floors sound like... umm, I don't know. Just sounds A LOT! Not to speak about walking up the stairs.

Vanessa I wish you good luck and a GREAT WEDDING!

Adam Lambert

Adam Lambert

Okay I wont say anything els then, MY GOD! Okay I will say a lot more and you better read all of it. Before when this guy was still in American Idol I didn't pay much attention, I never do. I hate American Idol as much as I hate the Swedish version, I get bored. And say what you want, I know its so big and so popular but I just cannot say I like it and my Aunt Johanna, well she have a very good taste in music... most of the time, no offence there. But now she has been going on about this Adam Lambert for ... uhmm lets just say forever which is since he stepped in for the first Audition, where ever that was. And I couldn't care less everytime she spoke about how freaking great this guy was and IS. I know that he didn't won but ended up on second please and i must say; CON-FREAKING-GRATULATION DUDE. Everyone know that the winners (most times at least) ends up on the bottom with nothing really good, some few make it to the top I guess but what I have hear and umm.. seen sometimes is that number two or even lower end up doing so much better then the actual winner.... enough about this crap.

So like Yesterday I was looking around on YouTube.com and I was thinking; "Well what the hell, lets check this guy, Johanna is talking about, out... so hmmm what was his name again... uhh. Trying: Adam Lambert * probably wrong, mixing names together* AH! Not wrong"

So I click on this link then: Adam Lambert - For your entertainment. Expecting the worst shit ever and I am STUCK. This shit rocks. I absolutely love it so I proceed to listing to "If I had you" and "Time for miracle" and if possible my eyes are shining, well what can I say, this is the kind of music I like and I have not heard anything so freaking good in a long time and the music videos as brilliant. And with reading comment or just looking around on the internet I just can stop think that, drop this freaking gay talking-shit. So what he is gay, is that the end of the world? No. And come on, the guy is brilliant and he sings better then most other people could ever dream about. I absolutely love his style, its awesome. I think its kind of wrong to point out that he is gay when talking about his music because that doesn't really matter. He does very good music and that all that have to be said so enough about that. I hope the here a lot more, a bit pop/rock songs soon, that is my favourit!